I just recently had myself a birthday.
Birthday are BIG FRIGGIN' DEALS in my family. And, I may take it a step further, you know, because I can. Generally, my birthday celebration lasts between a week and the entire month..depending on my mood. I make no apologies for it. You can either get on board or get off the birthday train, it makes no difference to me.
However, with this year's birthday came some perspective, or retrospective...basically it got me thinking.
"I am not where I thought I would be."
Truthfully, who is? But we're not talking about everyone here.. we're talking about me..or rather, I'm talking about me. I'm 29. Divorced/Single. and a whole lotta other stuff.
I'm a planner. In fact, I've been made fun of because of how much I like to plan. (yeah, I'm not speaking to those people anymore) Anywho, like I said, I love to plan. Big plans, small plans, vacation plans whatever. I'm the plan maker. In another life I'd adore being an event planner I think. Which is why, in my head, I made all these plans for myself. However, I never really informed anyone else, assumed "everyone" else would go along with it, and furthermore than God would just provide the path to make it all happen.
Yeah, I realize now.. STUPID GIRL.
Life is not about the plans I'm making.. it is about the plans that God has for me. This.. has been a work in progress for me.. but I'm learning..
Thankfully, he has been patient with me.
So no, I am not where I thought I would be..
but now I'm easing up on making the plans and waiting to see what the plan is...
Song of the Day: "Good Life" One Republic
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